Let me backtrack a little for those poor people who don't already know the tale of my pathetic soap opera-ish life xP. Last Saturday was All Region auditions and while I was there, I saw Jessalyn and we got to talk. While I was talking to her she was like, "Oh, by the way, I was talking to Jimmy today and he told me you guys broke up." That kind of hit me hard. I wasn't exactly surprised, but to hear about it from someone else.. another girl is just not the "best" way to find out. I know Jimmy suggested that we just be friends until he gets back to Plano, then we could get back together. The thing is, he didn't act like we actually broke up and yet he went around telling everyone. What's the point of telling everyone [particularly other girls..] that we broke up if he intended to get back with me in two weeks? I don't know, to me it doesn't make sense.. Anyway, when Jimmy first left to go to China he suggested that we just be friends, but we never broke up. I thought this time was just like in the past when he suggested it before. I guess I was wrong. After Jessalyn told me I let the news sink in. I decided I would ask him about it when I got home. The next morning I got online and read Jimmy's profile. He had posted up some kind of Christmas list. The second item was supposedly a girl's name, but he said she was someone he would never have. Yeah, the thing I noticed the most was that this girl's name was eight letters long.
That's only seven letters if you counted..
After reading his profile I didn't feel like talking to him. I was thinking about the different girls whose names could fit that and it just made me feel sick. To take my mind off of everything, I went Christmas shopping with my friend Leila =). Christmas shopping lifted my spirits ^_^. While I shopped I thought about different people as I tried to look for a gift for them. It's kind of funny, but the person I thought about the most was Itai. Over the past few weeks I talked to him a lot and I got to know him. I talked to him about everything and I was open with him. Whenever we talked he made me laugh and just thinking about him while I was shopping made me happy =). I couldn't keep it to myself any longer.. I told Leila what I had suspected I felt.. I liked Itai. Yeah, I LIKE ITAI =). I couldn't wait to go home and talk to him. Just thinking about talking to him made me all giddy ^_^ and I completely forgot about my problems with Jimmy.
When I got home, Itai IMs me and I'm filled with excited and nervousness tension. In the middle of our conversation he says..
CoOlGuYiTaI: so, kathryn
CoOlGuYiTaI: tell me
CoOlGuYiTaI: who do u like now?
CoOlGuYiTaI: maybe i could hook you two up ;-)
aquariuscharm29: lol
aquariuscharm29: i dunno if i like anyone
CoOlGuYiTaI: b4 valenine's day
aquariuscharm29: i'd prefer to wait until someone likes me
aquariuscharm29: and tells me
aquariuscharm29: teehee
CoOlGuYiTaI: well...if they do...
aquariuscharm29: a sweet romantic confession
CoOlGuYiTaI: then what :-P
CoOlGuYiTaI: lol
I told Itai that I would tell him who I liked if he told me who he liked. I had a feeling, a very good feeling that he would say it was me.. After Itai took a few minutes, he finally IMed me. At this point, I had another window up over his IM box because I didn't want to read it right away. The anticipation was killing me, but I purposely took my time. When his IM box came into view. I just stared at the computer screen for a minute..
The sweet confession I was looking for..
Itai confessed that I was the girl he thought about. I was the girl he cared about. I was the girl =]. He was nervous about the whole thing, I could tell. I was so exhilerated, I immidiately told him how I felt O=). I wanted him to know that what he felt for me was what I felt for him ^_^.
The last time I saw Itai was the weekend after Thanksgiving. Gawd, I wanted to see him again so much =) and I did last Firday. Interestingly enough, as a day known for its unlucky vibe, Friday the Thirteenth was such an AWESOME day for me =D. I don't know if I can attempt to describe how happy I was to see Itai, so you'll just have to take my word for it xP. To the people who are superstitious and believe that Friday the Thirteenth is unlucky, I just want to say..
While we were at the mall, he told me he could stare at me forever, haha =}, so we found a bench, sat down, and we had a staring contest o_o. Goshhh, he won xP. I got up from the bench and held out my hand for him to get up. He took my hand in his, and as he stood up he pulled me closer. At that moment, I looked up at him and he said,
That was the moment.. *heart melts* You may not think it's a big deal, but everything was perfect. The setting, the mood, the way he sweetly asked, everything.. it was like a I was completely swept off my feet =). He was being so.. formal, it's like he was asking for my permission. Haha =)
After I smiled affectionately, I said yes.
I took his hand in mine, and we slowly walked to the exit of the mall, where he knew his father would be waiting for him. After I hugged him, I watched him climb into his dad's car and leave. All the while.. I was beaming. I was smiling so much that by the time I got home my cheeks started to hurt, lol =D.
That was last Friday =). Today I went to the mall with Christine and Nicole and I met up with Itai. Haha, you could say he "whisked" me away. I asked Christine if I could "convienently leave" so that she and Nicole could shop for my gift O=) ;). I got to spend another afternoon with him by my side =). When I got home today I was determined to write down everything that happened to me. People have actually asked me to update, so here it is. My life lays before your eyes once again.. I hope you've enjoyed reading what I say as much as I enjoy experiencing it.. and writing it for you ^_^. Tomorrow is another day and guess what??
The girl who has fallen head over heels..
[[ +:+ ||: Kathryn :|| +:+ ]]
P.S. - Christmas is in 10 days :}